Reflections back, fore, up and down

 

Ever stop and just wonder, for a moment, what exactly you were doing this time last year, or the year before that?  I just did that.  I’ve been turned inwards for a few days, and I think today it culminated in a pair of conversations.  One with my girlfriend, the other with myself with the Taterboy and Puttytat as audience.

So I looked back.  Two years ago tomorrow I blogged as my former self, Scarlett Greyson.  Reading it was illuminating.  I remember that particular point in time very well.  My ex and I were in the midst of another ‘try’ at making things work.  Four months later I left.  I didn’t give up.  I just acknowledged that we just weren’t compatible.  And then I think and think and realize that we were always trying, that things were never easy for us.  I guess it points to how young we were, that we went stubbornly forward instead of accepting that maybe we weren’t meant to be together.

Step forward a year.  And this is what I blogged on my Swirling Currents site, my place to ruminate and ponder before I started doing that here.  I don’t journal well, but it’s been interesting to see what things change through what I share.  And I remember very well that point in my life too.  I remember staring out over that ice and just smiling with the sheer joy of being alive.

And here.  Now.  January 17, 2012.  A day ahead, but I think you’ll forgive me.  My life has changed in ways I never would have imagined.  I’m in love, loved, respected, treasured.  I’m writing once more, finding my voice, finishing things.  I have a sailboat, Dream Weaver II, and sail her single handed more often than not.

It’s been a rainy day, today.  Lights glint on wet pavement and the clouds glow, reflecting city lights back down.  I’m looking forward to a hot bath and a quiet, sweet phone call with a voice I adore whispering me to sleep.

Be well.  Live true.

A bheith go maith, beo fíor.

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