Ever stop and just wonder, for a moment, what exactly you were doing this time last year, or the year before that? I just did that. I’ve been turned inwards for a few days, and I think today it culminated in a pair of conversations. One with my girlfriend, the other with myself with the Taterboy and Puttytat as audience.
So I looked back. Two years ago tomorrow I blogged as my former self, Scarlett Greyson. Reading it was illuminating. I remember that particular point in time very well. My ex and I were in the midst of another ‘try’ at making things work. Four months later I left. I didn’t give up. I just acknowledged that we just weren’t compatible. And then I think and think and realize that we were always trying, that things were never easy for us. I guess it points to how young we were, that we went stubbornly forward instead of accepting that maybe we weren’t meant to be together.
Step forward a year. And this is what I blogged on my Swirling Currents site, my place to ruminate and ponder before I started doing that here. I don’t journal well, but it’s been interesting to see what things change through what I share. And I remember very well that point in my life too. I remember staring out over that ice and just smiling with the sheer joy of being alive.
And here. Now. January 17, 2012. A day ahead, but I think you’ll forgive me. My life has changed in ways I never would have imagined. I’m in love, loved, respected, treasured. I’m writing once more, finding my voice, finishing things. I have a sailboat, Dream Weaver II, and sail her single handed more often than not.
It’s been a rainy day, today. Lights glint on wet pavement and the clouds glow, reflecting city lights back down. I’m looking forward to a hot bath and a quiet, sweet phone call with a voice I adore whispering me to sleep.
Be well. Live true.